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Sunday, April 23, 2006

nightmare.

okays. yesterday, church was fine, service was great, except for the crying part. it started with just esther, weishan, prisca and me, i think shann and esther didnt cry, but me and prisca did. we just hugged each other and keep crying, she told me to stop and i told her to stop. which is pretty lame. and then it was so embarrassing cos this guy in the aisle i didnt know offered me some tissue. and i forgot to mention we were crying in the audi. and guess what. andy ang actually offered us some tissue. fine. i accepted it. cos my face was so tear stained. and i didnt want anybody to see me like this. then esther came along, she saw my crying and both of them (prisca and esther) kept asking me why i was crying. but i wldnt say. i the end all i said was i was worried for prisca and her grandfather. which was true. it was part of it. seeing prisca so stressed and upset really makes my so sad. this struck me that all the more i should wait on the Lord and pray for guidance because i know he will settle my problems for me. then in the end, esther and prisca dragged me to toilet to have my face washed. and i sorta stopped crying. then after service and debrief. sister sujia said i was like going to cry so she wanted to talk to me. so i told her the whole prisca thing and her grandfather. and she wanted to walk over to talk to prisca too. but sis jo was coming over. so she said maybe later. so i told her i had to go anyway. cos i had 3 exams tmr and i really needed the time to study. but i dont even think i can study. because everything revolving around me is like horror. and all i can think of is ___. so later i went to loook for prisca and kezia. who were hugging and crying. and i hugged them too. and started crying -.- i cant hep it. its just flows. we're all so sad. but we'll keep praying. becuase my God is a HEALER! the 3 of us stood there, we cried, we laughed. then we stopped. guess what prisca asked? she said would you cry if andy cried? i was like huh? lols. then i started laughing. it was funny. but im still worried. so i hope that those of you who know prisca and is reading this. pls pray for her. her grandfather fell down and was admittied to hospital. there was bleeding but no wound. so the doctors are puzzled. they suspect theres like an internal injury and her grandfather is 92 years old. so please keep praying for healing. pray that he'll be saved. keep believing okays? yuppps. i felt much better when she said whatever problem i have she'll be there for me. im so touched and i told her the same thing. (: i love her so much. my darhling mama prisca. and my darhling kezzie too.

yesterday. wasnt any better. went home with gabriel and joel and their cgm carl. joel was playing some weird card game with carl. and so i sat with gabbie and i wasnt really in the mood to talk so he sorta cheered me up by taking crap. at first i didnt say anything. but i got better so i started talking to gabbiee. then we sorta laughed abit cos he was lame. yupps. and when qt mrt came. i didnt feel like getting off. so i went with them to jurong east. then i took back. i msged brian cos i was suppose to go him with him too. so sry. and later when i reach hme was so tired and bored. and i realise i lost my handphone cover sort of thing. yea. made me more depressed. i ate ham and bread. lols. which didnt make me feel better then i went to bathe and sleep. i was depressed and felt like eating chips. lols. so i got my dad to buy me ruffles. yumm. shall eat it later. makes me feel happier. chips and chocolates cheer me up. (: so now you know. yups. then i had 2 nightmares at one go for one night. how great is that. yuppss. woke up feeling so _____. and here i am. guess i better go study now. sighhhssss. thanks joel and gabriel and kezia and prisca for making me feel better. and to joel, yes we're in thhe same boat, lets hope it doesnt sink. (: take cares all. my blog feels weird without my ceo. anyway. he resigned to those who didnt know. yupps. tatas!~

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