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Friday, January 26, 2007
i need you.
hahas. im struggling to blog now. really didnt feel like it. cos i've been in quite a depressed mood the past few days. and its quite complicated because so many things happened at once. and i just couldnt take it.
i wont blog about the past few days. one word can summarise it all, because i cried alot the past few days. and im so glad i didnt but i almost hurt myself on wednesday night. as in physically. and i totally lost the mood to study because the moment i looked at my homework i would think about what happened. and at that point of time i felt like i really needed someone to bite or cry on. XD because when things like that happen both at the same time you just break. and im someone who cant take stress at all. i was really so lost and now i still am. but lets not dwell on it. =D
friday. school was okay. i was practically trying to drown myself with things to do to keep my thoughts from diverting and it sorta worked. but i almost cried at some point of time. it would be really embarrassing to cry in school. so i sorta threatened myself not to do it. XD we had PE first period. which was javelin throwing, was quite fun. good experience. =D and the javelin's real cool i think. reminds me of pristontale which i was madly addicted to 2 yrs ago. and incase you dont know what it is, its a game. =D 3D i think, those typical fight and train games. and obviously i played priestess again cos i always do. =D not that i aspire to be some weird mysterious person. (but "mysteriaa" is really nice okay!)
then had chinese lesson which i took my test thingy. suppose to read the chinese book then test on it but i only read the first 1/4 of the book but i scored higher then those who read the whole book. amazing. God's grace bah. i got 18/20. lols. then had geog. which was rather interesting. all about plate tectonics and landforms again. about to finish the chapter. i think physical geog is really fun. but human geog can make you puke. and i have to do that next year. sian! XD
then had emath. which was okay. mdm lee was nice. she let us do our corrections and finish our homework during the whole period. emath is still okay. but my amath is really horrible. im practically drowning in it. thats why i need ppl to teach me. XD but people like joel, teach my halfway can go watch prison break. then after that reply at the pace of a turtle. maybe slower. and in the end also nvr help me solve finish. i went to sch with the qn blank. HAHAHS. tsk tsk. but joel is ya reading this which is unlikely, dont be pissed. i really appreciated your effort in helping me with the first part. =D but so much for being an A1 student you say. couldn't even have more patience teaching poor oh cheryl. lols.
then had recess which was okay cos i was with my clique again. i feel alot better when im with them. =D but they probably dont even know i was depressed. XD and they probably wont even read this. lols! they dont exactly have a habit of reading ppl's blog. neither have i. i only read like 1 or 2 blogs. =D then we had english. which was fun cos ms chua makes it fun and not boring. we had discussion about stuff. and yesterday she called on me to answer her qn cos she felt i wasnt speaking up. XD and she asked about what kinds of bullying i felt there was in SC. so i said ppl give others the silent treatment. ignore them and isolate them. keep them left out and practically hurt them emotionally. and there are like so many of these cases in school. tsk tsk so horrible. but lets not dwell on it.
after school was like packing my books and stuff. had to bring all my books back. cos next week i have 4 tests in a row. sigh! amath then emath then chinese i think. then chem. sigh! who wants to revise my amath and emath with me? (don't be like fabian ding, tell me he math a1 student then give him simultaneous equation then he dunno how to solve.) LOLS. seriously i think im going to get tuition but i dont have the time for it. LOLS. XD cos im going to have jap tuition and chinese too. my life is so horrible.
anyway. got home. and decided that i have nothing to do. and since PE is graded this yr and we have this PE log to do. i went to the gym for an hour i think. felt really good after that. but i think im going to get muscle aches tmr cos i havent exercise for a long long time. all i did during the hols was eat. =D but i only gained 0.5 kg. how cool is that. but still i feel 0.5kg is alot. XD
right now im going to slack before i go for cg. and honestly i dont feel like going for usher or service tmr. i feel so messed up. if i could reverse time. i would have cherished. hahas. i shall be blogging soon. but definitely not daily.
byebye!
and now i realise you are my support. because without you i've fallen so badly. will you pick me up?
A rainbow appeared at 5:29 PM.
