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Friday, February 02, 2007

heart-wrenching words.

hms, for the benefit of my readers, i will keep all negative emotions and thoughts to myself from now on. please try as much to ignore my 2 previous posts. i decided i wont delete it cos its just an expression of emotion. XD i have human rights too okay. this is MY blog. lets begin. i have pictures today! XD


last saturday. went for svc rtaher reluctantly. at 3pm i will comtemplating whether to go. then in the end msged daph and said i meet her bah, hahas. then we took train together. =D our journey there was a fun one. we were talking about stuff. then went for usher super late. i sort of gave a sian face to everyone. XD sorry to those who might have felt offended. like jeffrey and paul. =D thanks for trying to cheer me up though. okay then i ushered and i saw patrick. lols. only fmps and JOL zone will know him? patrick lim wei wen. who gave me this blank face cos we havent met for some time. dunno whether it was considered dao. lols. then during svc i sat with daph. we practically ate sweets every 5 mins. we've been doing that since dunno when. all kinds of sweets too. =D and guess what, depressed? stuff yourself with chocolate. it works. =D (thanks jiayin for buying me MnMs. i love you girl!. =D )


okay then after svc i went for bs. even though its weekly i feel like we goingsuper fast like that. hahas. its already authority for victory lesson 8 this week. so freaky. anyway after bs went to look for cg with dorigo. fellowshipped a little, didnt eat dinner cos nothing to buy. sat there listening to the members talk. then helped daph with her a math homework. which she wasnt the least bit interested in. hhaas. then xiuzhen talked to me about some stuff. blah blah. we had our fun. played with the cookie monster that yongbin bought daph.


cookie monster in ian's hoodie. =D


oh you know its darn funny. cos yongbin told xiuzhen to help him buy daphs bday present. his sms read "help me buy elmo the blue one." LOLS. so xiuzhen bought the blue one which is cookie monster. then daph was damn pissed with yb. XD so we decided for yongbin's bday we shall buy him sesame street vcds. cos he obviously needs to increase his knowledge on it. XD

then after that we went home. nothing much. i was walking home with my mp3 as usual. hahas and i was sort of skipping all the slow songs. cos they're kinda sad and i didnt want to start crying by the roadside like i did the last time. XD shall not talk about how embarrassing it was.

sunday. i went to malaysia. it was a last minute decision. XD my parents decided to drag me there. so i was studying on my way there. not exactly studying cos my nails sort of interested me more. =D


can you see the cations and anions table behind? i memorised it all. =D


so proud of myself. but still abit confused between chem formulas for carbonates, sulphates and nitrates. cos they have like nitrite, nitrate and nitride. gosh. yeaps. then went shopping and stuff. window shopping more like it. hahas cos didnt feel like buying anything. then came home quite late. chionged my work. then just went to bed. hahas.


monday. nothing special. except that assembly they gave us ANOTHER talk on blogging and plagiarism. that should be how to spell it? XD yes. it was super boring. they say the same thing over and over again. when their main point is: don't open a blog least you blog unnecessary stuff which will tarnish the school reputation. so much for our own good. they just dont want us to birng the school name down. hahas. bleah.


tuesday. had amath test. which i screwed up. cos my teacher didnt teach us clearly on standard form. i didnt understand it. i lost a super laod of marks on it. i think there was 3 qns on it. about 8 marks in total like that. if im not wrong i got them all wrong. so obviously i failed my test. but because there was a typo error in the last qn. they decided to give us all the 4 marks free. so actually without the 4 free marks its 11/26. totally failed. but after the 4 marks it was 15/30. =D amazing right. but i feel super dumb. cos there was so many full marks also. all the scholars plus our dearest rachel lee mun yee who is so smart she shouldnt be in our class. right. but i still want to thank joel for staying up on monday night till 12am just to help me. =D you're appreciated by cheryl! hahas. oh ya and i also had my peer leading session 3. played games with my lovely juniors. =D im in charge of 6 of em. hahas. and i rmbred their names! its tricia, dominique, li ting, eleanor, rachel and mei yin. yaye. =D


weds. super long and boring day. was tiring too. had emath test. which didnt have time to finish cos i do test very slow de. lols. XD so lost 2 marks for not completing. yeaps. and 3 marks for careless mistake. cos i forgot to factorise my final answer for one. they other forgot the put bracket and last one nvr put plus minus sign for the root. so 3 marks flew away like that. so dumb. and 2 more marks were lost in some qn where i got the concept right but somehow i mixed up the addition and subtraction signs then final answer wrong. -.- so sian. so i got 23/30 bah. which was quite bad. sigggghhhs.


thursday. super long day too. took chem test. which i screwed up again. this week just couldnt get more depressing. yeaps. i didnt have time to complete so last qn anyhow do which was wrong. shucks. then lost quite a few marks here and there. and first qn i read wrongly do wrong le. zzzzzzzz. and i actually stayed up till 2am to study for this test. i dont know the results for this test yet. yeaps. then afters ch went for hcl class. suppose to write ying yong wen. which is letter. then we all couldnt finish on time did until 3pm. so was 1 hr late for netball. hahas. but netball was slack anyway. the coach just sat there and count score. didnt even umpire. tsk tsk. yeaps. so i played one game only. cos was quite tired and all. and after the game sandra came and aplogise to me which sort of shocked me. she was like: sorry cheryl cos im sorta bad and stuff. hahas. so i was like blank cos i was wondering why she even needs to apologise to me. cos its not like im so pro. haahs so thats what i told her and we laughed.


yeaps. then after training i went down to bishan for 3rd lang. sigh the teacher practically talks to himself. then we just laugh at him. which is mean but aw well. yeaps then after 3rd lang i sort of went home str8 without walking junction 8. cos most of the time i do. you can see many interesting things yea. XD and meet like primary school friends and stuff. cos alot of students at j8 always dunno why also. yea.


today. is. a. erm horrible but not so horrible friday. its not exactly tgif. but yea. had chinese test first period. was panicking. cos i nvr study. XD was too tired to study. but in the end the test was okay. it was quite easy actually. and it happened that the 2 mark qn everyone didnt know how to do got typo so now we got free marks again. =D hahas. then lessons as usual. oh ya geog. miss goh "threw" me and jane out of class. for not doing her geog tutorial. we were given 5 mins to complete it at the bench outside class. lols. actually alot of ppl didnt do i think just that she didnt check theirs. and she seems to be bias against me. since the beginning of the year she gave me a bad impression of her. she scolded me for CE. my gorup for not taking CE seriously. like wth larh. character education. then she always call me to answer her qns. that time she made me come out to point out to her where the himalayas mountains are on the world map. luckily i know larh. or else dunno what she gonna say. XD oh ya and shes always companing about my fringe. bleah. she say i should pin it up and stuff when the prefects didnt say anything. and everyone's fringe is longer than mine. crap.


then after i reached home. just slacked. watched john tucker must die and DOA. both were good. and i thought DOA was really nice. dunno why i got feedback that it sucks. i like the jap girl. =D kasumi i think. ahahs. shes really pretty i think. yea. then went to play badminton again. recently got back to paying badminton. now im wondering why i took netball as my cca instead of badminton. XD


then came back. went online. chatted and stuff. seems like alot of ppl asking me how i am. weird. then i got my answer. the one i dreaded but didnt want to delay getting. i sort of reread every word you said. and i know that this is the choice best for both of us. the different paths we will take from here on. the past 2 years spent will be unforgetable. it will be eteched in my heart, every moment, and so will you. the promises you made me you dont have to keep. but the promises i made you stands forever. all the best with your life, goodbye. i know its weird i just said that. but the person, you know who you are, so you can just read that and get on with your life.


i don't know how things actually coordinate so well. the good things come together. then the bad things smack you in your face in one go. and sometimes i really dont know what to do. hahas. and its been awhile since i realised i nvr had someone i could rely on. whenever i felt that a particular person would be the one there for me, he or she would somehow disappoint me. and i would say right now. theres not a single person who i confide everything in. even when i want to share something i have no one to cry to. thats why i want to be there for someone. cos i know how it feels like. but i cant be there for everyone. but at least, just a little concern. abit of love and comforting words can make someone feel better. it doesnt take much, but you'll heal one broken heart. =D


okay anyway. heres one more pic. i took this some time ago. totally not edited. =D a pretty sunset.!




sunset at keppel. =D


i took it at the place i like to go star gazing. =D i thought it was pretty nice. im sort of fascinated by this kinda stuff. hhas. yaye. thats the end of my long post. tmr theres svc. i dont exactly feel like going. daph aint going. sad. and i sorta have this feeling tmr is the last time im going to chc. yeaps. so anyway. i shall meet joel then go. hopefully he's not taking car. XD or else i'll totally not feel like going. yaye. im having a splitting headache now. i shall go rest. =D tmr morning im updating. hahas. gonna do some thing jayin asked me too. sounds like fun. some 20 statements about ppl thingy. =D take care all.


byebye!.
one day, i will erase that line you drew between us.

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